approximately 4 and a half years ago, in a textiles classroom at our college, isi and i both decided we wanted to get a koi fish tattoo each. 3 weeks later, isi - far cooler, more spontaneous and generally far braver than i, appeared with a koi on her rib cage, that she had designed herself. isi passed away around a year later. it’s taken me 4 and a half years, and summoning courage that i didn’t know i had. but i also have a koi tattoo, designed by myself. isi was a leo, and so her constellation sits next to my koi, keeping it company. i’ve been trying very hard, and 2019 will be better, because it has to be.
